I Didn't Feel Like *Trying* to Be Funny Today

Some days you just wake up and want to write about your feelings. Sometimes the real news is just something that makes sense to you. I mean that's why I have always wanted to write to make sense of something. Sometimes I am not really sure what I am trying to make sense of. I write for a work a little bit and I write in my free-time a little bit, but sometimes it just feels different and I don't really know why I was writing about other stuff before then. Passion is a hard thing to wrangle on demand, but when it comes it keeps you up all night listening to Miles Davis and trying to draw whatever is in your head on paper. *Note I said trying. That is when I realize that this is why I am alive to feel this. Yes, I will work and write school assignments and analyze what Shakespeare *really* meant when he had Othello murder his wife, but nothing is like this strange feeling I get on days when the snow is crashing down and I need to feel something. All I know is this blog is me attempting be something and I wanted this post to be about me, so here we go:

- I don't like being defined by money or age.
- My favorite book is most of them.
- I have worked since I was 14.
- College is either the best choice I have ever made or the worst and I am still not sure which yet.
- I've always done okay in school, but rarely cared about math, or science, even English.
- I never thought I was particularly good at anything, but not necessarily bad either.
- I am very susceptible to short feel good moments which is why I smoked (cigs), over ate, and spent too much money at music events.

There you have it my moody excuse for not being funny and giving random personal facts about me. I applied to graduate yesterday, scary stuff. I guess I a just thinking about what I have really done in the past four years. I think the answer is just destroy my body- fix my body- and learn bunches about things I will most likely forget probably before I finish paying off my student loans. Bright side is that I probably wouldn't change any of it.